liar.

i can't believe my friend d.
when we first became friends a couple of weeks ago, we were always talking.
she was like a sister to me.
but now she hardly ever fucking speaks to me.
like when we were at sophie's, i always have to initiate the conversation,.
it's like, wtf have i done?
-sighs-

andi t's like with josh.
we always used to hug and put our arms round each other and talk all the time but now he doesn't really speak to me.
it's like, ffs, talk to me!

grrrr.

sophie's backgarden

went camping round sophie's last night.
didn't get any sleep.
went home today.
watched a film.


life really is shit atm.
cba going into detail.

i don't even want to fucking speak to anyone.

boys.

i hate them all at the moment.
they're all a bunch of fucking arsewipes.
grrrrr....
i'm fucking fed up of waiting for a boyfriend.
every guy i know eho i liked has straight out rejected me, gone out with me for a 'joke', made up an excuse or liked someone else.
like david,
i liked him since i met him, then i asked him out,
he said know because he wants to get to know me a bit more before we go out,
but yesterday at danii's house, she was talking to david on msn and i asked her to ask him if he still likes me, but this is what happened..
he said he doesn't want to go out with me anymore.
turns out he likes someone else now.
appazz, he's liked her for ages.
but i don't understand why she's suddenly come up?

i ended up getting really angry and upset, partly because of him, but because this kinda thing happens every fucking time., is it too much to ask for someone to actually like me?
jesus fucking christ.

anyway, now on to the lighter side.

i broke my phone slightly, which just amkes me lol.
and my phone bill is £117.59 even though it's only supposed to be £10 a month.


oooopsssss.

it turns out i actually have a life now!
i actually go out with friends a lot more than i used to.

but i don't feel like the biggest spammer on the mcfly boards anymore, which sucks.....

-cries-



LOL.

omfg.

long time no speak.

this week has been busy.
yeah busy doing nothing.
i think things between me and amy p are becoming okay.
although she was really bitching on thursday.
because i normally meet amy p at her house then we walk to amy m's house,
but i was a little bit late, and amy psaid that if i didn't get there by quarter past they were gonna leave,
but a lot of the time me and other amy have to wait till AHLF PAST FOR HER.
whoch i think was really bitchy because we always wait for her.
which sucks.

erm..been starting my photography folder, which is going well.
got some models for my fashion shoots.
just need one or two more.
so if you live near me, just message me and i'll get back to you, thanks :)

xxx.

uft.

the show was amazing!
although when we did hairspray in the first one, chrissie and tina got the words wrong which we all just laughed about.
the second one when we did hairspray, i got most of the moves wrong during my duet bit with alice. but i suppose it;s okjay, depends which performance they use for the dvd.
so it went well.
some of us cried at the end, including me lolz.
chrissie said she is gonna stalk me now, which i'm kinda scared about.
ahahaha kidding (:

so :D

xox.

huuuuuge prolem, need help.

help me out here,

i have a huuuuge crush on one of my close friends, but i don't know how to tell them, because they're slightly older than me and i have a feeling they like one of our friend more than they like me,
and i'm just confused about what to do about it,
because the age difference in kind of a problem, but they're aren't like, 10 years older then me, don't worry.
and we don't even ANYWHERE near each other, and i was thinking of going to visit them next summer.
and it's kind of weird, cause i doubt they feel the same as i do.
urgh, life sucks.
ahaha i sounds like a friggin' emo lolz.

help me?

an update on my totally FABULOUS life.

not.
life is vair confusing.
which is no suprise.

i watched rent AGAIN,
i'm bloody obsessed.
ahaha.
mandy's online atm on teh mcfly boards so i have someone interesting to talk to.
everyone go read her blog, http://amandarudow.blogspot.com
(:

lolz that's all (:

life sucks then you die.

well howdy.
i'm kinda new to this thing so my dearest apologies if something goes wrong, which totally wouldn't be suprising for someone like me.
seriously, ask anyone who knows me.
ahaha.
today has been eventful.....not.
well, i have only just got up,
because it's like, 7:10 as we speak...well type.
and as i have just got up, not many events have occured....apart from getting uo, turning on the computer, writing this....SHUT UP BRAIN, SHUT UP.
anyway, i just want to say a few thank you's and r.i.p's and such, because it's my first blog and i think this is the appropriate place.

r.i.p zig, i love you.
r.i.p hannah. i miss your smile.

now on to the lighterside,

erm....thanks to all my friends....
(:

anyways.
back to the blog (:

this last couple of months have been kind of hectic, with rehearsals and such.
the show is in 2 days, and tbh, i don't think i'm fully prepared.
i'm so scared i'll forget my words or sth,
or fall over during 'Nightmare' which wouldn't suprise me.
at least i've got my trusty knee-pads to keep me safe!
thank god i didn't give them to Tina, i'm gonna need them.
and the bit where we all run in a circle is the bit that scares me the most,
and the stage is so slippery and my jazz shoes aren't exactly helping.
but maybe i'll just spray some hairspray on the bottom and get on with life, like everyone else.
unfortunatly i don't have a life, so....


shit, im screwed.